Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Lady Jane *the one who watches you sleep*'s LiveJournal:

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Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
9:15 am	Fuck Junkies! Fuck You! ***Hey! i have an idea! Let's be super smart and hide dope and a bunch of needles inside a table, inside a bedroom where four little kids play all that time!!!*** -Fucking, usless, lieing, worthless bitch- Current Mood: Betrayed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
7:27 pm	*Looking for a car to buy* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 4th, 2006
12:36 pm	IT WAS JUST A DREAM I think about you all the time. in a world and time where i cannot trust or believe my closest friends. family even. I think about when times where good. who we both used to be. never thought it would have ended. i try sometimes to hate you. thinking it might make it easier for me to erase you from my mind. my heart. even looking back on the most heartful moments, the hatred never seems real enough. i had a dream the other night. kind of a wierd one in general, but the main point of it was that ou had died. I drove 5 hours to get to your funeral. If i really want to hate you, why did i wake up crying? real tears of saddness? the day after i had that dream, i felt this heaviness on my heart. it pulled me down the whole day. life is so fucking strange. so many things happen that were never planned. never forsought. in the end we are either happy with it or we just learn how to deal. I dont understand any of it. things used to seem so much easier. what was the turning point? Current Mood: confused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
11:42 am	you want to know? I finished school with all A's (for those who thought it was impossible) I've been at the same job for 2 years and i really do enjoy it. I'm a Toys-R-Us kid. How many people can truly say they like thier jobs? I spend all my spare time with my husband (yes i did say husband, not boyfriend. how is that amusing?) and my daughter. Teaching her new things and watching her grow. Somedays, she even teaches me... ok, most days. We just moved into a new townhouse. Two floors, two bedrooms, two bathrooms. The baby has her own room for the first time. I am content with my place in life at the moment. I finally see a future for myself and my family. A decent one. i no longer have ANY phone numbers. (the baby broke the phone by dropping it) Therefore, if you think i need your phone number to stay in touch with you, i would recomend you leave it on here. In two days I will be taking a trip back out to Missiouri with mom, dad, Justina, Nathan, Mandee, her new boyfriend Robb (yes, she is getting divorced) and her three kids. My uncle Kvessi (the on with the dreds) passed away yesterday morning. Stiil, no one is sure how or why. I will probably see Muka out there because he left to go back a few weeks ago and I havnt heard from him sense He talked to mom, said he wanted to stay there for a little bit and help his mom. Who knows what will happen with that. *Now dont laugh at this next one* I am part of teh Morman church. well, i havnt been baptised. Not sure if i want that kind of commitment to something that is so completly different from the way i have ever lived my life. But i do attened with my parents and my daughter was bleesed into the church. I have hopes that if she grows up in the church, maybe she wont have to experience half of the things that me and her father have. Maybe wishful thinking, but i've learned that most of what gets us through life is hope and faith. Most things are just out of my hands. No, i dont really have any friends... that i really talk to at least. I keep in touch with Lynn as much a possible and once in a while, we hang out with jeff and lindsay, but other than that, it's just us. And I am ok with that. It is nice to see everyone once in a while, But i have enough going on in my life, there's no need to add anymore tasks to it. so, time to get things together for the trip. dispite the reason for going, it will be nice to see the family again. for them to meet Nathan and see how much the baby has grown. *We're thinking of you Rusta Man* Current Mood: hopeful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:35 am	Is there a certain point in one's life when the people around them just begin to die off? Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
7:14 am	This is life... She will be 11 months old on the 3rd of July. Has it been that long? Seems like yesterday... Her smile is unbelievable. Everyone should be so blessed. It's crazy that she can comunicate with us and just a year ago, she wasnt even here yet. But sense she has been, each of those days are filled with greatness. Now, the three of us are a family. Who can count how many times i've said it, "I'm never having kids." "I'm never getting married." Who would have thought... I've done both. now we have our own little happy, yet somewhat crazy, home. completed school. Was a very long 14 years, but hey! Better late than never, huh?!? and i worked damn hard at it too! I am living a normal fuckin life!!! FINALLY! Clean, complete, responsible! How many of you could have ever seen ME, MOLLEE DAVID (now Marshall), living a normal life?!?!?! I never would have thought it in a million years. and now i see it, everyday. I love it, Everyday. All mistakes are in the past. For everyone. I've created a future. Not only for myself, but for her as well. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
4:53 pm	It's been awhile I have become a stronger, more independent person. I have proven to myself that I can do this on my own, if I have to. I have officially become succesful. In life - My Life - (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
8:03 am	It's kind of cold today. My boy is out running his heart out so that he can come home to his girls. I miss him. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 19th, 2004
7:17 pm	"i hate when there's problems in the family." I was in her place a year ago. she has a drinking problem. maybe not as extrem as mine was but she definitly has one. her life has become unmanagable. she has become out of controll. maybe she'll do what i did. GET HELP. i understand your feelings about the mettings. I know the intentions of the are good, but i just cant handle them. the same stories over and over again. the same lectures over and over again. i think the persistence of them are them are what makes me recent them. are you joining Joe's recovery?? I feel bad when i cant express how much i really do miss you. but i feel like im always being watched! there are people all over just waiting for me to slip up at any time. and all these back stabbers, i just dont know who to trust about anything any more. but im trying to make myself more comfortable. can you see the effort? im tring to not feel like im being so "stalked" but i knmow i am. even his stepmom keeps tabs on me. (ill have to tell you about that later) try to understand. I miss my boy so damn much. every phone call makes me miss him more. he needs to be at home with us, but he needs to learn this leason, also. i can only hope that things get better for us in the future. AH! i love her so much! i just wanna squeeze her! shes perfect! of course... she's mine. Andrea, hows life goin?!? I miss you! Current Mood: exhausted (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
11:07 am	I'm diggin school. Its not bad at all besides all the stupid drama but that always comes with highschool, right? i just have to stay AWAY from trouble. me muka and tyler can make this school year work, im sure. my boy is gone again. but this time, on his own free will. he knew it was the right thing to do. i miss him extremly. but i know he'll come out of this a better man. "it still says 'I Love Mollee' next to the phone." i love my boy. my lil princess is already going on 1 1/2 months! how sad is that??? shes growing up too fast! but she gets more and more perfect everyday. god, ive never loved another humanbeing so damn much. i know her daddy is dieing for her right now. he tells me everyday. Current Mood: okay (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
10:46 pm	school always seems to bring drama sucks when you think you know a group of people well enough to trust them and then they set you up. that shit is fucked up. and i know they all know who did it, too. just too bad none of them are good enough friends to admitt it. but its all good. he got more then he came for. its that Samoan strength. *LMAO* the post-herrasment was fun, too. "I got yo baby mama, bitch." (and i also think im black but im really just a punk bitch white boy) even though my baby is leaving for OCJ tomorrow, beware, a bigger and badder Muka is comin. (Isaac) that pair cant be fucked with. .im not looking forward to tomorrow. Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
1:17 am	I wish I didnt have to go through all of this right now. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
8:05 pm	All i could think ro say was "Holy Shit." I was just sleeping in the chair i woke up everytime the door opened, but i wasnt expecting you to walk threw it. A shock to both of us, huh? I was so surprised, that i couldnt even say or act how i wanted to. my mind didnt get a chance to process what was going on. hope i didnt seem 'cold' or anything. i wish i could have enjoyed the moment more. oh, and by the way... it was great to see you today. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
3:17 pm	Happy 19th Birthday to me! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 27th, 2004
7:06 pm	this perfect being... we created it? that still amazes me. Current Mood: pleased (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 26th, 2004
12:01 pm	i remember... squeezing 7 people in his car at the park in commerce medows just so we didnt all have to smoke and drink in the cold feeding him CCC for the first time and him forgetting to go home him dissapearing for a couple months him talking about how his cousin was gonna fuck fat tony up driving out to clarkston for some pills and getting crazily lost on the way home when he fed me some bomb ass pills for my birthday sitting on the hill at the music fest. rollin balls with him andhim not being able to stop talking about the outfit that he just jacked from someone the endless amount of conversation he can ALWAYS seem to make him calling me at school to go find his car because he was on some 'cid and lost it. then he found himself in pontica with some black people, and a mexican hooker not knowing how he got there or why he thought his car was parked in thier kitchen. him introducing me to his cousin him and i getting into our first fight when i asked him to take me back to see his cousin again me him and rob driving threw the D, rolling, smoking a blunt behind that cop. tyler telling me how he never stops talking about me. me and him getting caught me messing up the chance of us staying friends i miss being friends with him i miss his goofy ass (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
8:53 pm	it's hard sometimes, to keep hope about everything being ok. we try our hardest to do things right get things back onto the right path but something always has to make it hard when will it ever be easy on us? its just getting difficult to keep trying i have become emotionally drained Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
8:06 pm	My Pretty Girl (Lynn's mom made the dress) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 21st, 2004
2:42 pm	The Hula Girl Uncle Nick with his first neice Justina with mommy and daddy Cousin Kadin loving the baby My Perfect Princess (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:59 am	Nathan's first tattoo My new tattoo (Comment on this)